Promises....

It's already January 23, and I'm breaking promises to God. They were hard ones to keep, and i'm still trying, but they were promises. Gary and I both realized that God's asking us to step it up our discipline, not to be more routine, but to answer when we hear Him.
my challenges:
submission-people are not out to get me, i don't need to be defensive
choices-must look at the whole picture without listening to my justification or reasoning into manipulating what i want.
attitude-think positive, I have all I need, I am never without. He made me perfect.

pretty stinky stuff

then this morning in our quiet time, Gary read me this:
"When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow. It is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfill it. Do not let your mouth lead you into sin. And do not protest, "my mow was a mistake." why should God be angry at what you say and destroy the work of your hands? Much dreaming and many words are meaningless. Therefore stand in the awe of God." Ecclesiastes 5:4-7

and i realized i cannot "do as He says" without Him. I can't be Jesus or give Jesus without Jesus. Standing in the awe of him....dang that's good.